Saturday, December 27, 2008

We never should have settled for him, that's all...we never should have picked him - we should have been more patient and chosen someone with more style, more talent - someone who fits us better...but, no - we chose him. About a year after that, we 'had a band meeting' and told him he had to straighten up - change his hair, work on his timing, ditch the Springsteen wardrobe...and so he did...but he still has timing issues ("Mrs. Robinson" has never come out right as far as timing is concerned) and he's not really a rock front man...K and Z are now both wanting to kick him out, and an ad has been placed in Craigslist - obliquely, of course...here it is, end of 2008, and there's all this talk about kicking him out again. It seems to me that the time to kick him out would have been in March or April - hell, even May - "Well, we gave it one more shot, but it's just not happenin'"...now it's a little too late in my estimation...I suppose I get more worried about the fact that he set up the website and the MySpace and the Filesharing and does all the bookings and does all this work for the band because he likes it and what a shitty way to treat him after all this time..."We never really liked your style or anything, but thanks anyway..." - not even a gold watch...I suppose I don't like the ad in Craigslist either - the fact that K just went ahead and did it without asking (or at least giving me a head's up before he did, like he didn't want to bother with me or like my opinion in the band doesn't matter) and the fact that the ad itself is a bit disingenuous (no one is leaving town to my knowledge)...I just think that it's gonna get ugly and that there are gonna be a lot of hurt feelings...it all makes me wanna quit the whole fuckin' thing. I like K - quite a lot, in fact - but I don't like the way he approaches things sometimes...maybe I just don't like the fact that he treats this as though it's his band. In a very real sense, it is. But, in just as real a sense, it's the other fellow's band as well...and I like to think that I'm more than just a sideman. Honestly, I simply dread the inevitability of it all, and I want to go hide away from it; which I'm sure is where I get this feeling of wanting to leave the band. I suppose we'll see on Tuesday, when we have our next practice, what transpires...I know I'm gonna be one surly sonofabitch - to K and Z, for wanting to kick this guy to the curb, and to this guy, who really does need to be kicked to the curb but, because of his dedication to the band, deserves better...